this is the time in Shakespeare when we existential angst

So, I’ve been being pretty useless of late–wait, that’s not even an accurate assertion.

It’s more like having epic ennui with a side of the Worst People Hangover in the History of Ever.

I’m honestly not certain about these Things That Normal People Do.

But, yeah, I feel useless and like I haven’t been getting art made and I probably shouldn’t be just pouring this into here for y’all to see, but I guess I am?  Sorry?

I mean, I know this is something all artists have a problem with:  times when we don’t feel as productive as we could be, when the idea/concept is not doing what we want it too, when we feel like we should just chuck it all and find a job in banking or whatever it is that “normal” people do.

know this.  I’ve been here before.  I recognize that tree.

I’m just–having a harder time with it.  I don’t know if it’s because I’m doing all this writing for The Rainbow Hub–which I maintain is still best job is best–and I end up using all my words there or if I have too many extraneous groups/activities going on (e.g., Fiber Fanatics, worst name EVER; Traveling Treadlers; Knitting Guild; Saxony Spinners; the ARTgarage making me not happy) or I just–have too much going on in my head and am paralyzed by Too Much To Make and Too Little Squid To Do It.

It also doesn’t help that none of my classes are really going and that the only thing I ever seem to sell is yarn.

Which isn’t bad, but could someone actually buy on of my artworks?  Please?  It’d be nice, and I’d be able to get a new laptop or, ya know, any of the equipment I need to actually make my art-making more efficient/effective.

IDEK, but I’m done whining at y’all for now.  Sorry about that.  This is what a transparent art-making:  insecurity, art, and angst in non-equal measures.

Dude, I’m sorry.  This just isn’t on.

Have some art and art-like substance.

So, yeah.  This is what I’ve been doing (mostly–there’s more monoprints kicking around in my studio), and the chimera series, which is not a quick series to work on (but when has anything I’ve ever made been “quick”), is wanting to be my next Quarter display and I may just–let it?

IDK.

Courage.

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