so–i’m not going to be at anime fusion this weekend after all because of medical things, which means that i’m feeling like i am just disappointing everyone and everything

and, this year has been a surfeit of me feeling like i’m disappointing people because of health and vehicle problems and other things

yeah, i’m doing really good with this here

today’s inktober/drawlloween/drawtober was “worst fear”, and disappointing people is one of my worst fears

i’m going to go have a nap