(from richard siken’s “a primer for small weird loves”)
(the blog post title if from richard siken’ “landscape with a blur of conquerors” from war of the foxes–siken recently had a stroke, and there’s a gofundme to help with his rehabilitation if y’all have a few dollars and can help? that’s be solid of y’all) Continue reading
that’s a line from richard siken’s poem “landscape w fruit rot and millipede”
it’s been a thing i’ve been resonating with–really, richard siken in general
so, i’ve returned to the world–well, i’m returning to the world slowly
so–i’m not going to be at anime fusion this weekend after all because of medical things, which means that i’m feeling like i am just disappointing everyone and everything
and, this year has been a surfeit of me feeling like i’m disappointing people because of health and vehicle problems and other things
yeah, i’m doing really good with this here
today’s inktober/drawlloween/drawtober was “worst fear”, and disappointing people is one of my worst fears
i’m going to go have a nap
okay, not literally, but hyperbole is a salve to my soul, so just–go with me on this one
despite being told over and over that the beginning of the year is somehow this immense, new time of possibility, i can’t help but remember that our western new year is an arbitrary designation of “new” and “start” and “beginning”.
we begin when we begin, and having this imposed designation, i often think, just harms us more than it helps.
but, as with most things, your mileage may vary.
that all being said, there is a certain energy that permeates the west at the new year that does propel us all forward–whether we ascribe to the imposed “new” or not.
which is a weird, random way of saying that these were my projects from last year, and these are my projects for this year.
y’all, it’s been a solid minute since i did the thing where i talked to y’all, and i apologize.
so, first things the first.
ANIMINNEAPOLIS IS THIS WEEKEND!
so, yeah, i’m going to be heading out shortly so that i can set-up tonight. i’ve got loads of things, but mostly, i have a bunch of new 1″ buttons because i’m a weirdo.
(i particularly fond of the “twee as fuck” and the “gender terrorist” ones.)
but, yeah, come and see me and maybe buy some things.
okay, okay, okay. i know i’m always on drive-by, and it sucks with a capital SUCKS. this is what happens when you’re a sickly squid who’s had cons and colds and epic familial visits all happen this month alone. (they say as they’re trying not to hork at the moment. fun times.)
honestly, there’s only so much of me to go around on the best of days, and this is that annoying transition part of the year which, for me, are not remotely the best of days.
now–on to actually important, relevant things, yeah?